So here’s an update for whoever actually cares….
My roommates have made it clear for some time that they want me gone. The only reason I haven’t left and got my own place is because my job is only temporary. Well Saturday night sealed the deal. I’m not proud of this, but shit happens. The cops got involved cuz I got shit face, near blackout drunk and couldn’t get into the house. Part of the issue, besides being drunker than a skunk, is that the porch light is NEVER left on. Shit I have issues getting into the house SOBER at 2 am when I get off work. Well apparently a neighbor or two called the cops and they came and I’m told I had to wake up the male roommate. This is on top of forgetting a bag of watered, not pissed on, litter on the bathroom door before I left for the night. Oops. My bad that y’all’s dogs barged through the gate and then my bedroom door to try and EAT MY CAT! Jak even has a cut on her neck from that. ANYWHO! I have until the end of September to find a new place and thus a very short time to find a permanent job. If I can’t, it means going back to Texas, living with my grandma, and being utterly miserable in the heat and dirt that lives in that god forsaken state. I want to stay here.
So if you could, please say prayers, light candles, or whatever the hell it is you do that I find work ASAP so I can stay where I want to. I’m so sick of not really having much of a say over my life. Where I live is always determined by other people and I want to live HERE since I can’t live in Germany. This entire thing has me in a not very good place emotionally and mentally. However, I’ve battled with these types of feelings most of my life and will not do anything else stupid. I just need the spiritual help.
Quick update/Edit: About 30 minutes after I posted this, I got an email from the temp agency that the gig I’m on is extended another month. This is great, it buys me some time, but I REALLY need a permanent job so that I don’t have to live in fear of losing my apartment that I need due to no income. So please, please, please pray/light a candle/whatever it is you do that I get a permanent job soon! Someone at work has planted the seed in the manager I report to’s ear about me wantin to do registration, but that doesn’t seal the deal yet. I even know where I want to live and can go talk to them tomorrow or Thursday to make sure they still have an apartment available. Even if I have to I will work 2 shitty part time jobs in order to stay in Colorado before giving up completely, but that requires me to actually get those jobs.